永远到底有多远？也许永远就只在紧紧拥抱的那一瞬间;

YSunday, February 25, 2007' 11:27 PM

back 2 blog le ^^

keke... 2day we go eat suki sushi... sad sia... wan go eat sakura de... bt all nt on de lor... say go eat bt in e end they eat 1st... dunno wat e outin 4 lor... haiz... nvm la... there stil a next time wor... den after suki sushi we go pool... den jeff buy me a bunny 4 my bdae de wor... haha...

my bunny... bdae present wor... cute ma?

other den my bunny he oso buy a pooh de cup 4 leen s bdae present... lol... den i gt a new keychain oso... haha... den after pool we go hm le lor... hmmm... y bo lang buy me n80 4 bdae sia... haha... kiddin la... too ex le... i wk n buy 4 myself more lik it... =p

my new keychain...

closeup of new keychain... ^^

countdown: 17days... 19 soon... weee... 2 b continue...

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YThursday, February 15, 2007' 11:44 PM

guys r crazy...

i really wish tt tis moment im dead man... nvr alive... wtf i gt sia... ytd which is valentine day... while i online... ben was kip callin dorrie dorrie dorrie... til im willin 2 ans him... den he simply say nth juz 2 wish u happy vday... i dunno wat he wan sia... stil say wat haven pass 12am stil vday... den oso say wat mean i didnt 4get u... wat is tis sia... dun he no tt fr e v moment he giv up tis r/s he gt 2 let go? y mak me thin so much... arrgh...

simply dunno wat all tis guys r thinkin sia... walao... 2day i go out wid my laopo... kiat ming n my so cal ah gor terry... after kbox... we go eat... after all tis... we go hm lor... den they all took train de... i took bus cuz more convenient 4 me ma... walk lesser thou e journey n timer taken is longer la... bt cuz lazy ma... lol... den on bus... i receive terry's sms... he say reach hm tel him... k nth wrong he my gor ma... BT... nt long ltr... he send me 1 more sms... cn we b stead? wtf is tis sia...walao... i say u crazy le ah? pls lor u gt gf de lor... he ji tao tel me a shockin news... brk tis mornin le... cuz i wan stead wid u... i really omost ganna shock 2 death by him lor... it was lik if we r possible 2 b tgt... we long ago a couple le lor... i no him 4 dunno hw long le lor... i nvr wanna change anythin lor... i once told him tt u my gor 4eva my gor... i dun wanna change it... den i tel him... go find a gal n stead long long lor... dun stead 1 brk 1... nw tis 1 is stable de u oso brk... walao lor... he siao 1... reply me say... he love me fr e v start lor... juz tt he wait onl... he is serious n stil say feel tt we cn last long de... i nvr wanna reply him... i really scare of him sia... y dun he juz giv up... if he gt chance... i long ago accept him le lor... dun he understand tt? sum more we so long no contact le... onl recently go out 2 time nia.. he say all tis 2 me... omg... i really scare of guys sia... n feel tt they muz b crazy...

hw much i wish i was nt alive sia... all giv me shock nia... nth gd... walao... all guys truely r crazy man... mayb nt all... bt 4 sure tis 2... anyway... wanna thk kelvin... ytd he treat me dinner... lol... althou go 2 e lanshop he wk do nth la... in e end stil gt e smell of cigratte on my shirt... arrgh... bt thk 4 his treat... he funny sia... wanna ask me b his gf bt say wrongly... cn b my gf 4 2day? den lik tt he bcum my 19hrs bf lor... cuz tt time he ask is 4+am le ma... funny lor... anyway update til here ba... dunno wat 2 type oso plus lazy so kip it short lor...

2 b continue... 26 days left...

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YFriday, February 09, 2007' 9:44 PM

eh...

wel... 2day go orchard wid my laopo... den hor... nth 2 buy lor... cuz orchard de thin all v ex ma... bo money le... anyway... 2day oso spend alot of money lei... we go print print... wel... we took 2times... den 1 is $11 wor... which mean we each spend $11 on tt machine le... so ex... bt kk la... long time once ma... so nvm la... most of all is wid my bloved laopo lei... so is zhi de de... wel... sad sia... cuz no scanner so... cnnt update my print print oso... once all is scan... i wil post it out de... haha... occy... juz wait ba... cuz no scanner so bo bian la...

ytd juz ganna nag by paul sia... haiz... ytd hav a short conversation wid paul in irc... at 1st is i pm (private msg) him 2 say sry... cuz tt time nt in gd mood ma den giv him attitude lor... i no he nag at me is 4 my own gd la... bt sry 2 disappoint u sia... i dun thin my exam i do wel... so s usual is juz lik wat i last time tel u lor... phd (poly halfway dropout) bt happy 2 hear tt u cn mak it 2 poly... wish tt ur job n studies is all gd la... anyway s a frenz i stil care... since u move out n stay by urself le... do tak gd care of urself ba...

mayb u r rite ba... we really nt meant 4 each other lor... a misunderstandin cn lead 2 brk... bt all is over ba... i no v clear tt 1 sldnt test their stead... bt there is 1 thin i had nvr say 2 u... wen u ask me... r u e onl 1 in my heart... i ans u yes bt 2 u it seem lik i ans yes bt my heart is nt so... it juz all bcuz i afraid of losin wat i had... wen u find tt u r e happiest person in tis world... u wil afraid of losin it... bt im too wrong... wat i nvr told u is... do u no y i feel so? tt bcuz wen eva u go thru frenzter profile of ur ex u wil tel me... she is pretty... she nw gt stead le... all juz abt ur ex... i juz quitely listen 2 u n nvr say anythin bt in my heart im v hurt... do u no tt... if u say u feel tt i had nvr luv u b4... tt v wrong cuz if i dun... y do i afraid of losin n tt was y wen i say ya u r really e onl 1 in my heart... bt dun dare 2 look at u n say... b4 i brk wid u... i ordy prepare a present 4 u 4 our 2nd mth anni bt is too late... b4 we brk... our 2nd mth is few days away... nw tt present no more wid me... all i had is a pic of tt... it come in a pair... bt eva since we brk... e "P" symbol i had lost it... n e present which i wanna giv u... mine is broken... n urs... wen i move hse... i nvr brin it along wid me... cuz is all memory le... i rem once u told me tt e "P" symbol i lose it mean i lose u too... i lose once bt found back... tis time round is juz lik wat u say i really lose u 4eva... mayb u nt in e wrong... im e 1 in e wrong... im really happy 2 no u... bt sad 2 lose u... u r oway 4givin me wen i do anythin wrong... n e care u giv me is lots... most of all... is e patient u giv me bt sry tt i dunno hw 2 treasure...

wat i cn say is... u r wrong... i did treasure e r/s btw me n my guy bt sumthin happen tt brk us apart... i had nvr use any1 2 cover my last hurt... wen wid u... i admit i do... bt after nt long i wid u... i do treat u s my bf n nt juz a sub of my last 1... sumtime... sumthin which i dun voice out doesnt mean tt i dun care... juz tt i dunno hw 2 show it... juz bcuz i dunno hw 2 show it... i lose u... n my ability of understandin fail... lead 2 me losin him... mayb u thin tt i dump him bt u were wrong... we brk 4 sum reason... n i really do treasure u n him... b4 him... is u... n i did thin tt we cn last... bt sad 2 say... misunderstandin in btw us seperate us apart... wen i wid him... i did thin tt tis time wil last le ba... bt i dun understand him... i was wrong... i dun even rem tt he nid time 2 grow up... bt wen i realise tis... i decide 2 giv time n nt stress... we brk le... all juz ended lik tt... paul ah paul if u read tis... i wanna 2 tel u... i do treasure every1... i dun understand wat lead us 2 brk too... bt all i cn say is... truely sry tt i tested u... i dun mean it... juz tt ur way of bhav really mak me lost all confidence in myself... bt s i say is all pass le... we cn say nth too... juz move on n look 4ward...

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YWednesday, February 07, 2007' 2:46 PM

cry again...

sad... cry again... i promise tt i wil nt disturb him fr tis moment onward... ytd b4 slp i msn him n ask him is it tt he dun wan me anymore? wel... i hop 4 a reply after i wake up ba... bt sad... i wake up le... he juz there usin his com... he is online listenin 2 song... bt he simply ignore all my msn... wel... wat 2 do? nvm ba... i giv up lor... mayb he juz really cnt stand me... tired of me le ba... silent brk again... sad... i hate e world man... haiz... anyway oso no way 2 contact him in future le... i delete his num le... ya... both of his num...

hop i get thru tis soon ba... haiz... bt thin n thin... after so many brk up... i sld b able 2 recover fr it ba... i hate valentine day... is juz a sad n lonely valentine ... no1 blong 2 me... im 4eva lonely... haiz... weneva valentine gonna reach i sure brk b4 tt de... haiz... guess tt im under sum curse ba... wel... tis my 3rd yr valentine le... bt stil gt 2 spend tis day alone... really sad... wen wil tis curse of mine stop? i dunno... eva u dun wan me anymore oso pls ans me a no den remain silent ba... haiz... so hurt...

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YTuesday, February 06, 2007' 12:03 AM

force 2 update =x...

haha... my title v weird huh? keke... bi e big baddy say muz muz muz update... lol... we go shoppin... den she buy ipod sia... den they giv her free ba kua... we c le den lik v blur sia... y gt ba kua de... hmmm... den we go bugis... wan shop shop 4 clothes de lor... bt hor... erm... cnt find lei... lik gt nth de... den we go shop 4 wallet cuz our wallet spoil le... haha... i buy a purple wallet den she buy a white 1... mine is last piece sia... 4 tt design no more purple le... den nvm lor i tak lor...

after we finish buyin e wallet we go tak print print... bt v e wat sia... s u all no la... e machine all is in jap word de ma... den k lor... we took le... bt hor... i press e wrong thin... den is lik end e design la... den gt 1 msg pop out it mean... really wan 2 end? yes n no la... den we both dun understand jap ma... den bi press wrongly lor... ganna e yes... den our print print is so empty lor... nt nice de sia... hmmm... bt oso due 2 e machine diff 2 use la... lol... bt bi de scanner nt wid her so no pic upload lor... haiz... currently bein torture by bi...

our old wallet... mine is pink n bi de is blue de...
our new wallet... mine is purple n bi is white de...

our story begin on 14 jan 07... 2 b contine?

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YSunday, February 04, 2007' 12:29 AM

sad...

if u dun wan me anymore pls let me go... stop torture me... im v hurt le... i been cryin 4 so long... nw my eye is painful n kind of dry... if tis carry on... 1 day i might goes blind... y muz u lik tt treat me? i seriously dun understand... mayb i juz dun deserve any1 2 b wid me ba... nvr eva wish 2 end e story of us bt sad 2 say... u givin me a feelin of unwanted... m i stil wanted?

2 e world im juz sum1... bt 2 sum1... im juz another sum1 n nt e world... e earth wil nt stop rotate bcuz of me... it wil juz carry on spin n spin n spin... wid or widout me... e world wil stil b e same... it wun mak any diff at all... mayb... im juz too xtra... is time 2 ask myself 2 b brave n face e cruel world ba... no point avoidin... i sld stop cryin... sldnt i? bt... hw? cn any1 tel me? i really v xian mu leen... she goes MIA at least stil gt xiang wry n sad 4 her... bt if im e 1? i dun thin there b any1... 2day omost die at dg... omost get knock over by a car wen crossin road... pink push me 2 walk faster... hw much i wish tt e car juz knock over me n real hard... in tis case... i wun b here cryin le... i feel so hurt... heart so pain... y? y muz u lik tt treat me? y? y didnt e car juz knock me over?

last nite cry til i slp too... i cry til 5+ den slp... in e afternoon wake up was stil cryin... haiz... i dun wish 2 b a cry baby... bb my blog... i had decide 2 b gone 4 sum time... time 2 heal myself ba... no nid 2 find me... cuz even u cal... i oso wun b ans ur cal ba... im juz destine 2 b a loner... all e luv n care i long 4 wil nvr b mine... :'(

our story begin on 14 jan 07... 2 b continue? i hop bt i dunno...

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YSaturday, February 03, 2007' 4:16 AM

disappointed...

im so disappointed... im tired of quarrel wid u... i onl wish u could thin carefully b4 u act bt seems lik is nt possible... u hurt me thruly... u brk my heart... i nvr wish 2 end tis story bt... e way hw u say me in irc really hurts me lots... i doubt no guy wil go irc n spam 2 other ppl tt his gf is flashin in msn... tis e way u treat me... dun 4get... if u were 2 lost me... u e 1 who chose 2... nt me... u mak me cry again... u dun understand me... u nvr care abt my feelin at all... all u care is u urself... u onl care of havin fun of urself n nvr tot 4 me... i wan a carin bf n nt sum1 who treat me lik toy... i tired of bein toy...

our story begin on 14th jan 07... 2 b continue? i nt sure... it all tt u decide...

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YThursday, February 01, 2007' 12:16 AM

singnet sux...

hmmm... wel... 1st feb le... time pass so fast sia... haha... 13 more days is v day liao... lol... nth special oso... 6th feb is my last paper MATH... after tt holi le... weeeee... wel... 2day mornin i wake up at 7+ abt 8am lik tt brin bi's pencil case 2 her cuz tt day i go exam 4gt brin mine lazy go hm tak cuz v mafan ah... n hor... NP V FAR LEI... FR 1 BLK 2 ANOTHER IS DAMN FAR LOR... after tt i go 2 check my pay come liao ma... bt hor no lor... den i ask dad 2 giv me money lor... cuz i meet sun n noob 2 go eat brkfast ah... den hor... i nt feelin v wel lor... giddy, head spinnin, neck pain den feel lik vomit sia... den bi say muz b low blood pressure... bt hor... i SO round n cute lei... nvr ganna high blood pressure is v lucky n muz tou siao liao lor... impossible 2 ganna low blood pressure ba...

after brkfast i go hm lor... den i go cal singnet n ask them abt my internet connection lor... wa... singnet super sux sia... i thin e line is nt stable lor... i cal e num 1610 2 ask abt singnet thin ma... den they transfer me 2 their technician... wait damn long sia... den after tt... stil gt 2 wait... e whole process is wait n wait n wait... den after tt they say 4 tis issue u gt 2 cal 1609... den again wait n wait n wait... den after tt they say nid 2 cal 1800-848-6933... knn sia... ya lor... again had 2 wait... wen i cal e 1609 they say u cal tt num n ask them 2 come over n check e line... cuz they muz do so... k lor... i cal... i cal liao... they ask many thin... den i dulan liao... i ans lik a dead person tok... cuz is damn dulan le lor... mak me wait so long cal here n there... yet no solution 2 my problem... k after tt... they say u go buy a new micro filter n try again... if cnt den cal back again... nabei... i wait so long cal here n there in e end cal me go buy a new micro filter n try... wth is tis kinda of service?

den after tt i onl can say kkk... den lik tt lor... wat 2 do? ppl say le go buy new micro filter le lor... den i ask them abt my livin rm de wall socket thin they say tis blong 2 e residential tel de... ask me cal 1609 again... wtf lor... so many num 4 wat sia... in e end is my problem nt solve at all lor... den i cal 1609 2 ask abt e wall socket problem ah... cuz e phone hav an irritatin sound... v loud lor... loud til u cnt heard wat e other person opp e line is tokin... my hse phone is fine nt spoil... cuz i try e phone wid my rm de wall socket ma... is wkin properly... no irritatin sound at all... wel... so i cal n ask is y lor... den in e end... e ans i get is... u get 2 cal e technician n ask them 2 come n check lor... den say she wil transfer e cal e their technician lor... den say next time if stil hav same problem cal 1608... den i cal... wel... i expect tt at least my hm livin rm de wall socket problem wil b solve ya... cuz they say... they wil come btw 2-6 2 check lor... they even ask 4 my add... in e end... 5+ b4 i go oit... they stil nvr come lor... den i go out at 5.30... in e end i came hm at ard 11plus abt 12am... i ask my parents... did they come... they say tt e technician nvr come... walao eh... wat a lousy service sia... i cal so many num n wait so long... in e end none of my problem is solve... v dulan lor...

at 5.30 i go out meet ben n watch movie lor... wel tt movie nt bad la... bt 2 me is lik mak no sense... cuz i nt potato ma... den my eng oso nt gd la... hmmm... den b4 go 4 movie all tis i go back 2 carrefour 2 get my pay cheque... cuz in e afternoon wen i was slpin... they cal n say my cheque is ready 4 collectin le... intend 2 go tak tml de la... bt since i meetin ben... den i oso shun bian go collect lor... bt damn sad sia... e pay v little lei... 700+ nia... haiz... poor thin sia... bo money... stil gt 2 pay my hp bill... $74... broke soon la...

BT HOR... WALAO EH... E SINGNET IS DAMN SUX... SERVICE DAMN LOUSY... NONE OF E IDIOT PROBLEM IS SOLVE... WAKAO EH... DULAN LA... SINGNET SUX...

our story begin on 14 jan 07... 2 b continue...

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