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YThursday, December 28, 2006' 7:24 PM

erm...

arrgh... ytd cnt view my own blog n cnt log in oso lor... damn fed up... all e earthquake fault la... hmmm... ytd wk den durin brk time i go c e complain letter i tio lor... wtf is tt stupid lady is tryin 2 prove? prove tt im rude and her attitude is damn gd? wth lor... her attitude oso suck la... dun understand y ppl nowsaday lik 2 complain so much sia... cn say tt omost more den haf of our staff is bein complain lor... is nature if sum tio complain bt nt omost haf of e staff... ppl is so hard 2 pls... fark them off la... anyway... she lik 2 complain complain la... s if i care sia... anyway... complain tt my attitude bad n i hav a sulky face dun smile... she thin wat... i cashier nt sell smile de lei... WO BU SHI MAI SIAO DE...

ytd cnt log in den in v bad mood lor... den tokin on phone wid alex... im kinda of givin him attitude lei... feel bad la... den i ask him do u thin tt juz nw i was kinda of givin u attitude... he say a bit lor... arrgh... he dun get angry lor... mak me feel more bad sia... i guess if is another guy thin i oready tio gan liao ba... he is v nice la... bt i nid time 2 over come my fear lor... den 2day i sick sia... early in e mornin 6+ i super cold sia... wear jacket le... cover blanket oso... bt stil there shiver lor... haiz... den my dad wake up n get me 1 panadol lor... arrgh... i hate 2 eat panadol sia... damn awful n bitter lor... bt no choice lei... stil gt 2 eat... haiz... den 10+ he cal n say wan meet ma... actually... tis mornin wen im so sick... i really wish he is by my side lor... intend 2 meet him de la... bt hor... cnnt lei... too sick n weak so nvr meet him lor... he start wk at 12 ma... nt enuff time oso la... nvm lor... next time ba...

den after tokin 2 him after sum time i go back 2 slp lor... den ard 12+ chelle cal me n wake me up... den i cal bi 2 meet her 2 get my christmas present lor... haha... den i was late sia... :x
hmmm... no choice la... super tired ma... so late 2 meet her lor... den she giv me a braclet s christmas present wor...

tis e christmas present bi giv me... heee... xD

den after meet bi i go meet chelle 4 lunch at admiralty lor... den we chat n eat lor... haha... den hor... we tok abt our frenz all tis lor... ya... n den after finish lunch... we go 2 her wk place... e mac at wlds market... den sit there do nth lor... b4 we go back hm... we go 2 e candy hse 2 buy sumthin lor... she bought a ball ball inside contain candies de... den e candies was too sweet la... each of us onl eat 1 lor... den she giv me tt ball ball... haha... e ball ball v cute neh... winnie e pooh de... wel... im 18 le la... bt i stil lik cute stuff... hee... den after tt we all go back hm le lor...

wen i reach hm i nth 2 do ma... so i start 2 zi lian... haha... hmmm... ya... i recently oso rarely took any pic la... so took a few lor...

my zhi lian pic... dun look lik me sia...

e shirt i wear cn tel hw cold im le... haha... hmmm... tis shirt is e second time i wear sia... e 1st time i wear it is tis yr de new yr lor... tt time i meet my 6th ex k, ru n her ex(tai)... we 2 couple ton at ecp lor... tt time i was wkin ma... den told mum tt i wk tt day bt actually no la... den we 4 ton there lor... den is lik... e memory is so sweet n nice lor... i wil nvr 4get... bt usually sweet memories dun last la... haiz... nt long after tt we brk le... sum time i do miss our past... bt no matter wat... past is past le... we cn nvr turn back e clock... wat we cn do is treasure nw lor... wateva we had nw...

here another of my zhi lian pic... wid my big bear bear... haha...

no matter wat... life stil goes on la... so try 2 let go e past... alex... giv me more time n 1 day i wil b able 2 overcome my fear de... i no u care... sry 4 wat i did... bt no matter wat i type oso e same la... u wun get 2 read oso... anyway... fr e pic oso cn c tt my frindge is super long lor... waitin 4 pay la... den go cut hair le... wel... might b dyin my hair...dunno yet la... c 1st lor... haha... i luv my big bear bear so much wor... ppl dun jealous... haha... no la... bi dun jealous wor... i oso luv u lots de... muhaha... wel... rainin all day sia... nw oso v cold neh...

den after all my zhi lian act... my dad pass me sumthin wor... another thin i get 4 my christmas tis yr... haha... i receive a christmas card fr M.L... e christmas card is so cute... haha... thk lots... M.L...

e christmas card M.L send me...

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YWednesday, December 27, 2006' 12:45 AM

stupid hse...

wel... tis few days oway gt complain n scold by customer sia... wtf lor... haiz... n really v dulan lor... simi complain lai de... complain me 4 nt smilin... siao de... dun let me no who tt person complain me i curse him/her...

wel... 2day go my stupid new hse... damn e v stupid lor... e rm is so small lor... much more smaller den my current 1... den i c e master bed rm... i tak tt rm lor cuz bigger ma bt nt v big oso la... n e stupid door is damn diff 2 close lor... is lik had 2 try many time den cn close... is lik really smaller den my current de... bt no choice la gt 2 move oso...

currently chattin on phone wid him... den his word touch my heart sia... thou he dunno hw 2 express his feelin in word bt i no wat he tryin 2 mean... i no u tryin v hard 2 convince me tt u cn do better den my ex... u wil treat me more better... bt i stil hav sum obstacle in my heart ba... after so much failure i do hav fear... 2 gain my trust u had 2 giv me time...

i omost cry after hearin wat u say... nt i sad... is i so touch... u tryin ur v best... u no tt u wil get scoldin 4 usin phone bt u stil nvr fail 2 cal me n chat every nite... i no tt u really did tryin hard... i really dunno r u e 1 4 me... bt i promise u i wil try v hard 2 over come my fear n b ur real dear...

i do dream of sum1 who wil giv me a ring s a token/symbol of our luv bt so far no1 did so... bt u r e 1st tt say u wish 2 hav a ring 2 put on my finger... u ask do i lik 2 meet u... ans is i do wish 2 bt mayb my fear of failure is stoppin me ba... hop 1 day i cn really face u ba... hop tt day wil come soon...

do i hav feelin 4 u? mayb... do i luv u? mayb... y all mayb? i oso dunno... i thin is bcuz i hav lots of fear... i nid time 2 overcome all tis... hop tt 1 day i wil cal u dar... til tt day i cal u dar mean i really hav u in my heart... lookin 4ward 2 tt day n our anniversary ba...

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YMonday, December 25, 2006' 1:15 AM

christmas...

hee christmas le wor... haha... hmmm... wel.. tml gt work sia... 6-11... hmmm ytd n 2day i gt scoldin by customer sia... damn farkin de sia... wen attitude cashier meet attitude customer is lik tt de la... haha...

wel... nw is 1am plus le wor... 25 dec 06 01:00 a new startin of my story wor... i nt sure if he e 1... bt let fate decide ba... hmmm... wil last or nt i nvr put in much hop la...

wen gt thin den update ba... damn sian de... nth much 2 update...

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YSaturday, December 23, 2006' 1:30 AM

damn dulan...

knn la... damn fuckin du lan lor... y i gt such an idiot mum... wk end late no train hm oso nt my fault ma... scold me 4 fuck... i really damn hate my hse sia... wat a fuckin hse i hav...

get money fr her every mth she kp... no money go find wk... gt job le... borrow money fr her nia she oso kp... dunno her la... walao... fuckin dulan sia... wait so long in taxi no1 come... reason is... dad is so e wat lor... come down dun tak hp i cal til siao no1 ans... den cal hse mum oso dun ans... knn la... at hm dun ans cal... wtf lor...

really wish 2 move out of tis fuckin hse sia... if i cn move out of tis hse... i might b a more cheerful gal... s a daughter other den dun lik study i nvr disappoint them lor... wen i was young no1 tak care of me... i mix wid bad accompany... i nvr turn bad oso... no1 force me 2 study... i stil able 2 go poly... complete my sec... i score nt bad 4 my n lvl too... i nvr disappoint them s a daughter... bt wat i get?

i start 2 wk on my own account weneva i gt holi... they nvr force me 2 go out find job... all is i willin de... eva since i was 16 i started 2 go out wk le... i no tt money hard 2 come... i learn 2 save even tot i really spend money lik water too la... haiz... dunno la... wat i wish is nvr wat i get... i juz wan a peaceful life man... cnt she juz spend more time 2 understand her daughter... really goin crazy le... i hate it... hate it hate it hate it... y y y... tis world is damn fuckin sux... haiz...

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YFriday, December 22, 2006' 12:52 AM

dumb dumb...

haha... 2day go out shop shop wor den go c movie... museum den hor e stone statue in museum came 2 alive... haha... i cal him dumb dumb... cuz he callin ppl dumb dumb... haha... so cute... i luv e line say dumb dumb... better faster run run... haha... over all quite nice n funny la... hee...

den 2day go meet pk, bao bao, sadden n 1 gal dunno is who la... den i oso go buy thin nor... a necklace n a braclet... lol bt nt i pay money... is serence pay de... she treat me alot of thin oso la... problem is she say she lik i stun sia... im str8 lei... bt dun wan hurt her... dunno hw 2 do... haiz...

anyway... juz came hm nt long sia... haiz... den nw on phone wid sum1 sia... den is lik i dunno lei... sum more i meet sum1 few day ago thin i fall 4 him sia... bt too bad la... is imp btw us la... cuz he younger den me... haiz... dunno wat 2 do sia... anyway... juz lik tt ba... wil update if gt anythin ba...

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YMonday, December 18, 2006' 1:19 AM

sad...

sob sia... 2day i go work hor... gt 1 auntie brin her son go shop shop den come my counter lor.. b4 she left hor... she saw my name tag nor... den gt my pic la... she say wah... shou shou de... hen piao liang... zhe li yang pang ni ah... xue shen shi hou de zhao pian wor... which mean wah... thin thin de... v pretty wor... work here mak u grow fatter ah... e pic of urs wen is student ah... bt bt bt... problem is... tt pic is taken wen i juz join carrefour lei... kao which is juz 1mth plus ago nia lor... haiz... ppl more photogenic ma...

or is it tis 1mth plus i grow fatter le bt nvr notice huh? haiz... oso nt surprise la... every day reach hm maggie maggie n maggie... oway so late eat... nt fat den weird sia... haiz... n sad oso cuz mayb over wk sia... mak me look older den my actual age ba... haiz... really damn sad sia...

n 1 more thin wor... 2day i short 20cents sia... it roll in2 e dunno wat sia... juz lik tt i short no reason... abit bu gan yuan sia... bt wat 2 do? lik tt lor... haiz... 2day nt my day la... damn sway n sad de sia... sum more oway late 4 work nor... 2day ganna by supervisor le... haiz... gd thin is tml nt workin so nt v tired... finally cn hav a gd gd rest sia... haha... so damn bored nor...

den 2day wen wan go hm hor... i saw tt 100cm bear had bcum $19.90 again... haha... is gd thin ba... haha... at least ruby cn get tt bear bear le... haha... if gt change i wld lik took e pic of 2 bear of diff color lei... cuz ruby wan white de ma... den mine is light brown wor... bt thin no chance la... e bear bear so big... hw 2 took pic while 1 is at my hse 1 is at her hse... haiz... no chance c 2 big bear bear 2gether liao... haha... hmmm... waitin 4 pay neh... wonder wan dye hair or juz highlight lei... sian...

hav a gd rest is imp la... bt at hm damn borin de... wish 2 go out bt no money no place go oso... haiz c hw nor... haha... anyway blog til here ba... update again another day... heee...

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YSunday, December 17, 2006' 1:26 AM

tired sia...

yawn... ytd work til 1am sia... siao de... sporean r really v kiasu sia... c where gt cheap thin CHIONG ah... haha... ytd so busy lor... 2day oso v busy lei... haha... tired of tis job oso la... many ppl gonna quit le... me oso feel lik bt cnt find any job lei... sian...

wel... goin move hse soon... move 2 108 there nor... jan 07 haha... tis wk gt 2 work back normal schedule cuz gt 2 pack my thin all tis la... dad la... so gan jiong sia... stil gt abt more den 1mth he oready kip naggin me 2 pack... lol... cnt understand sia... wel... im broke... waitin 4 next pay... haha... if my next pay is more den enuff i plan 2 get a mp3 sia...

time pass real fast seh... me holi le wor... haha... 3 wk... bt holi n no holi same la no diff cuz gt 2 prepare 4 my semester exam wor... stil plannin wan quit ma lei... sian... yawn... anyway is kind of borin oso... no life lei... haha... damn long time nvr go out shop shop liao... dunno wen wil i hav e chance sia...

thin blog til here ba... me oso nth much 2 say lei... if gt more thin happenin den i wil update ba... haha... anyway blogger really crazy sia... haha... cnnt log in normally... siao siao de...

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YThursday, December 14, 2006' 1:15 AM

Backie...

yes... i gt new blog skin le... n yup im back after disappear 4 a long long time... hop u all lik e new look of my new blog... hee... btw... e bear tt i once told u all tt i lik i had bought it... haha... i get it 4 $19.90 onl sia... so big so nice 2 hug... here is e pic tt i took 4 my bear bear...

isn't it v cute? hee...

i been workin at carrefour 4 sum time le sia... bt tired lei... a part timer bt seem lik a full timer lei... tired n nt enuff slp sia... wanna change job bt hard 2 find lei... sian... wat 2 do neh? christmas comin soon sia... n goin end soon oso... 2006 is goin 2 end... 2007 comin soon...

ya... every thin had over... now i back my my single life lor... i n him over le... juz few days b4 our 2nd mth anivers ba... saddies bt w/o him my life stil had 2 goes on... wel... i thin i gonna fail my my oc again ba... group present i did damn badly sia... haiz... hop cn complete my 3 yr ba... if nt sure ganna by mum de...

oway hop tt there is sum1 2 care n luv me... bt y all e guys i fall 4 had fail me... n hurt me badly... anyway nw is work n work n work lor... if is destined... tt special sum1 wil come 2 me naturely ba... if nt fated i oso cnt force it 2... haiz... life is really bored wid no special sum1 by my side 2 share wid me my joy n sadness... juz hop tt if i cn find tt special sum1... he wil mak me feel tt i e most xin fu de in tis world... wun mak me cry or even shed a single drop of tear...

i feel e kind of xin fu once bt is short... all i ask 4 is v simple bt seem lik no1 can do it... :(
wil my 19 yr o bdae celebratin alone? anyway is juz 3mth ltr onl... time pass so fast... im goin 19 soon...

holiday soon... haha... bt holiday stil gt prepare 4 my oc presentation n study 4 my semester exam... nt tt gd oso... haiz... let it b ba... life really v sad sia...

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